I need my B&J's now. Chunky Monkey, Phish Food, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. Anything. I just need my large amount of endorphins to get me not to feel like this. Right now, I'm feeling very unsatisfied with myself. My flaws overcome my good points. And who I want to be there, wouldn't even want to hear me speak. They'd just be saying all those typical shit which I'm sick and tired of hearing. I guess they're getting sick of me rambling on and on about the same shit which I can never get over and done with. It's not as easy as it sounds and seems. I'm not that strong as everyone thinks. Perhaps you can call my character and person, someone who makes a mountain out of a molehill. I guess that can explain the reason why they're gone. They may be there, physically, but mentally, they just disappeared. I have only myself to blame. I've learnt my lesson already. Keep it within self; don't speak anything which lays in the heart. Love, Fionella.

He flies, he soars in the skies. He's the one I seek once again.