Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

I'm still feeling very tired. The next 2 weeks of my life are gonna be helluva packed one. The China kids are coming this Friday. I happen to be down for duty on that day. Botanical Gardens and then the RH Day crapola thing all the way till 8. Gah. I need my sleep. I need my sleep. I need my sleep. As stupid as it sounds, I can't sleep now. Not that I don't want to but my sister is using the effing mattress and that bloody bitch is on the effing phone now and she laughs real loudly. I took 1 hour to sleep yesterday okay. Thanks to her. Urgh. Knn. Cb. RAH.

Afer this post, I'm gonna go down and go get a cup of water then take out my contacts and try the bloody best hell of mine to fall asleep. Gah, would that bitch understand that I'M DAMN EFFING TIRED?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?! This, is, crap. She never understands. Frankly, I can't wait for the bloody day that I can get my own room and sleep in peace. Great, she's rambling on to her friend about milk tea. Wtf. I'm soooo pissed now because I'm damn tired and yet I can't sleep. I can't deny that bloody fact okay. No where to sleep. What am I in this house man. I'm like, some kinda vagabond. No place of my own. This stinks. I only wish for that ohsoveryfreakassmoroniciohsofreakinghate bitch TO GET OFF THE PHONE and OFF THE MATTRESS NOW. Her lil sis needs some sleep. There. WALAU.

If I happen to be soooooooooo URGH tomorrow, don't blame me.

God god god god god, please get HER off the phone and mattress now, pretty please? I wanna sleep. And my days are gonna be so packed. The thing I want the most now is to have a good night sleep and wake up tomorrow all rejuvenated. Pleasepleasepleaseprettyplease.

(Not a lot of) Love, Fionella.