Not just any post.

Let today's post not be an emotional ranting. Let today's post be one realisation.
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I went to church today.
Well, it's normal for me, a catholic, to be going to mass every week.
But this time, it's different.
For the past 2 weeks, I've not been a very good catholic. So yeah, you get my drift.
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And today was Feast Day mass and the secondary 2 youths had an obligation to go and before that, there was "spiritual preparation".
At first, I remember I was telling Kim it sounded freaky or whatsoever, but I guess I was wrong after experiencing it for myself.
It was actually nothing much. It was just alone time with yourself and of course, God while some soothing music was played.
We were asked to close our eyes and think and be alone. Okay, so I did I was told. I thought about everything.
Everything ranging from the past week and everything that I've been through for the past few months or should I say, the past year.
I felt God telling me not to worry because He'll be there to catch me if I fall. I felt Him telling me don't give in, fight on and be strong.
Immediately, I felt a sense of relief. After what I've been going through for the past week, I finally felt peace and I had the strength to face every obstacle. (:
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He'll be there, I know. I just know. (:

I love you, God. Maybe Your presence has been lingering on and off in my heart. You've always been here for me. I'm sorry. I'll try to change, I promise. I love you. (: