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Today was an emotional day.

Gabriel Goh from my school passed away due to an accident. Although I don't know him and I only know him as the guy in charge of my group in the water rafting during Sec 2 camp, I hope he's happy up there with God. God will take care of him. Heaven's a happy place.

This incident made me realise how life can be so fragile. Break it, lose it, it's over. After half an hour in the chapel, I had loads of questions in my head. Why is God acting so unjust in this? Gabriel had like everything. He was a student leader, a good Scout and a model student. His future was already pathed out for him. But God had to take him away, just like that, in a blink of an eye.
I asked Mr Er what I was thinking. He told me some answers but the one that strucked me the most was, "The length of life is not important, it is the quality of life that matters." Then I thought, Gabriel had a very fulfilling life. Even if he passed away, at least he accomplished something that most didn't.
I thought of some peers who think "life's an ass. i wanna die." ALL THE TIME. I mean, at least they're alive to rectify what they regret. But they choose not to. Why do they not see that their life is precious?
Some even waste their life away by doing stupid things. Life is short, live life to the fullest are lines you normally hear. Have it ever occured to you that these lines are so true? We live to accomplish. Only then we pass away with peace in our heart. Why do these people not see they have the chance and potential to do things they never though they would do? Why do they just wanna waste life away being a a total slacker and leaving fate to decide their life?
Let me tell you something. YOU DECIDE YOUR LIFE. Fate plays no role in this. YOU are the cause of your own fortune. YOU can also be the cause of your own downfall. It's no one's fault if you ever land in prison for doing some misdeed. If you didn't make that decision to do it, you wouldn't be where you are now.
Now all I want is for people to learn something from this incident. I did. I wish some people would realise they are not nothing. The reason they are in this life is to accomplish something. I leave you now.

Rest in peace, Gabriel. You would always be in our hearts and prayer.

I'm not exactly in the best of mood now. In fact, my mood's like way down, down, down and more down than you can ever think of.

History test and Science test tomorrow. Gotta mug hard. I'm already placing all my hopes into getting into Pure Geography. There is no way I can get into Bio since ten thousand people who are smarter than me are aiming for that stream. If I don't get into PG, I don't know how my life is gonna turn out already.
I didn't go wakeboarding today. I was super lethargic and I wanted to study.
SOS, I need someone to listen to me right now. Save me tonight.

Love,
Fionella.

Okay, my ear (YES, you ain't reading wrongly.) is being rather funny now, or should I say for the past 2 weeks. It's like, peeling and liquid, NOT pus, has been coming out of it. Gross, I know. So if some of you happen to be eating your meal in front of the computer and reading this, I sincerly apologise. Abby the EAR doctor said perhaps some bacteria got into it and cause the itchyness and she asked me not to touch it. I can't help it! It's as itchy as chicken pox! Rah. I shall stop rambling on about my ear since this is a blog and not some ear rambling site. Then again, you came here not to read about my ear aye? SO MOVING ON.

School ended at 1 today. Gabby and Roy got into a fight in class. Gab's gonna get it again I guess. If I'm not wrong, they fought over something insignificant. O_O But whatever, lalalalala.

I tabulated my clothes wishlist today and I realised I need $800 to fund myself. After the EOY's, I'm swear I'm gonna work for cash, then shop and CHRISTMAS PRESSIES! :D

After school, studied a lot. Really, a lot. Like 2 chapters within 2 hours. Pretty fruitful study date today. [:Thanks Joseph for the ipod. Avril Lavigne and Good Charlotte kept me going. [: Three cheers for The Best Damn Thing and Good Morning Revival. I want both albums! Plus FOB and FM Static. Great bands everyone should adore manz.

I love Dashboard Confessional's Stolen. It's on repeat mode currently. (x

SHIAT. I need to get on with my Home Ec now.
FARE-D-WELLLLL.
LOVE, FIONELLA.

The worst things always falls on a Sunday.
Is Sunday a curse or something? Why do I always have to take so much shit on a Sunday? The last time so many things happened was also on a Sunday. What's with Sundays and me? I think I'm jinxed on Sundays.

Enough of the bad shit. On the other hand, I finally got my Rubik's cube. [: I only managed to get one side and it was orange. Heh. I'm gonna try to get the others man. Perseverance!

I'm gonna stay home all day and try to figure out the damn E-learn. I f-ing hate E-learn. When it comes to modern stuff like E-learn or traditional stuff like coming to school, I rather pick the traditional ways. E-learn is dumb. Like why did HIHS put E-Learning day the same as 4 other schools. The whole bloody system would be lagged up like nobody's business. But that moron asked us to be patient blah blah blah. Yeah, patient. PATIENT.

I hate Sundays. Damn.
ineedmywalklater.idontwnaseeemlateron.theydontwishtoseemeatallanw.
Love, Fionella.

Aloha.

I studied. (Does one and a half pages of History notes count?) But I guess I'm gonna continue later. Fwalalalalalalalala~

Anyway, I filled in the option form. They wanted to see the popularity for the subs. o.o So, my choices were like, Bio, Geog, FNN, Physics, Triple, DNT, Lit and Art. I mustmustmustmust take A Maths. I don't know why, but I mustmustmustmust take A Maths. Dee-dum.

I wanna change this skin man. Change it to greeen. [: Heh.
Just watched Bring It On: All Or Nothing (or is it All For Nothing?) I looove chick flicks. Mean Girls, Bring It On, Hot Chick, White Chicks and so on are all el-oh-vee-ee.
I think I'm gonna watch Secret later on! Wheeeeeeeee. Before that, we're gonna have a nicenice dinner. AND I MUST SERIOUSLY CUT DOWN LAH. I'M ALREADY A SOCIAL REJECT! RAWR.
Love, Fionella.

Like, E-Learning day was totally C-R-A-P luh.

The system got so laggy that they extended the deadline till this Sunday, 2359. I've got half a mind not to do it at all 'cuz I guess on Sunday, everyone's gonna be lagging up the bloody system again. Fwalalalalalalalala~

Abby came to my house to do Elearn but it was so screwed. Left me house and then off we were to PS. Then we had dinner at Soup Spoon! Meatless Minestrone~ Yummyyyyyy. [: Met Amd at Dhoby Ghaut. Met the rest at Kovan and we went to Hougang Mall foodcourt to finish up the Art stuff. I miss the old foodcourt so bloody much luh. No more el-cheapo and nice japanese food and no more 2.50 chicken rice. ]: Aww, this sucks. The new one is nice, but it's so pricey. Rawrr.

Went to school. Streaming talk. I'm damnnn confused right now. It's either Pure Geog or FNN. Then maybe Bio. 'Cuz for Pure Geog and FNN, I'm really interested in the career options in the future but for Bio, it's for the good of my own knowledge. Argh. I'm like bloody confused now.

Went home and THE.END.

I don't wanna tuition tomorrow morn! (And I just sent her the sms that I can't have tuition.) Tomorrow's PURE MUGGING MODE. No more joke, Fionella. THIS IS IT. You have 1 month and a couple of days to buck up and do well enough to get into your desired stream. 40% fun, 60% work. For now. (The ratio's gonna change on Monday 'cuz Monday I wanna get my Rubik's cube first. ><)

Love, Fionella.

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I bloody hell detest the photographer for ND celebration. LIKE, HE/SHE TOOK PHOTOS AT MY FREAKING FAT ANGLE LAH. RAH. I FEEL LIKE A SOCIAL REJECT RIGHT NOW. ]: